Terrified

I drove home from a "date" last week and all I could think about was him. I'm terrified that I will constantly compare every guy I date to him. That I will be sitting across from them at dinner wishing they were someone else. Will I ever be satisfied? Will I be able to find the happiness I once felt with him... with someone else?

I hate that I drive home feeling even more sad than I did before. I hate that I end up crying and calling him just because I want to hear his voice.

I'm not okay. And dating will be, and should be, out of the question for a good long while.