Pictures

I don't know why... but I found the original pictures of us... that ones that I didn't cut you out of. Why I can't delete them I don't know. Why I bother to look at them when all that does is make me cry. Why you are on my mind so much lately I don't know... I guess it could be because I'm alone.

I'm searching for something I found in you... but now I want to find it in someone else. I want to find it in someone who won't hurt me like you have. Who won't take me for granted or make me cry.

I saved some conversations we had on AIM... and for some reason I only kept the ones where we were fighting and you were being mean to me. I guess for moments like this when I'm having a hard time being without you... they are there to remind me that you aren't right for me. That you will never be what I need or want. But why I still need you and want you now... I wish I could understand myself.

I saw a guy at the beach today and he looked just like you. I wanted it to be you... but it wasn't. I couldn't stop staring at him.

Blaaaah.