I hate this song

I'm having a bad day.

I woke up and he was on my mind and now I can't (and don't really want to) get him off my mind... I don't know why I do this to myself. Why I can't just resist emailing him... why it's so easy for me to just unblock him from facebook so I can look at his profile picture... when all these things do is hold me back from moving on.

Why is it... that with everything that has happened between us... I can't feel differently for him? I still love him just as much as the day I fell in love with him. I want to know when the feelings will fade and I'll feel like being with someone else. Because I don't want to be with anyone else... and trust me I've tried. I guess I just need to find someone who will sweep me off my feet the way he did... who will have that look in his eyes when he looks at me... and I hope I'll just know. I hope I'll be ready.

I hate this feeling. The feeling where I want to see him so bad... and I know I can't and it just makes me feel so... helpless.