Should. Have. Known. Better.

I got my hopes up too soon. It's done... just as quickly as it started. Guys don't seem to understand that girls read so much from their body language. You go from kissing a girl one day to not kissing her the next day and she notices. She can sense you aren't interested because you don't even give her a kiss goodnight... when for the last week every night you've seen her... even in the morning when you woke up next to each other... you've given her a kiss goodbye.

Maybe I was just being blind to the fact that perhaps he was just looking for something fun to mess with for a minute and then move on to something else... something more exciting. I'm not exciting anymore because I got mad at him last night. I got mad because all week when he said he was going to do something he actually did it... and then last night he said he was going to do something and he didn't do it as expected. I feel like any normal person would be upset right?

I'm tired of being a pawn in guys' game of bullshit.

I'm angry. I shouldn't be. But I am. I shouldn't care. Cut my losses and move along. I can't. I want him to text me but I know he won't. I wanted this to be something wonderful so I could forget about you. Because you have so easily forgotten about me.

I put so much pressure on everyone and myself because I just don't want to be alone. I want someone to talk to everyday and hang out with during the evening and do fun stuff with on the weekends. I want someone who will meet my family and I'll know his and they'll love me because I'm the best thing to ever happen to him... I want someone I can work towards having a future with.

I'm not saying I saw this with David... but I'm saying it would have at least been nice to have gotten that chance. It just wasn't in the cards for us.

I'm tired now... it was a long weekend... and spring break is now over. These next two months will fly by and then I'll be a college graduate.