I still don't get it

There are a lot of things I do not understand. What is wrong with me? This is something I don't understand.

What is it about me that chases males away? I know I'm doing something wrong... maybe it's the guys? No, it has to be something I am doing that makes them get tired and just go away. I'm tired. I'm tired of putting effort into something and putting my heart into something and having it go nowhere.

What are other girls doing that I'm not doing?

I'm so grumpy. I'm sick again and I just want someone to cuddle me and not think I'm gross while I blow my nose every 5 minutes. Is that too much to ask?

Blah. Goodnight.