What the hell?

I guess I'm the idiot. Yes, I'm an idiot.


I don't understand how I keep getting attracted to males who like to play with more than one girl at a time. I don't get it. I've done it again. K and I have been seeing each other for about 3 and a half weeks now... and I just found out he's been sleeping with another girl. Blaaah. Thank goodness he and I have not slept together. I guess we would have by now had he not been getting it from someone else.

Why can't I find someone who is just satisfied being with me and me only? I don't give a shit what society says about dating or whatever. It has to do with my self-esteem and my ego and what I WANT. Yes, I have an ego. I think I'm a catch and a man would be lucky to have me. But why would a man who has me want someone else too? Yeah, I'm not perfect. I have flaws and I act a little crazy at times, but shit. Will I ever be enough?

Am I ever going to find someone who wants only me?